Loneliness..oh, just don't tell me about it. "Human beings can withstand a week without water, two weeks without food, many years of homelessness, but not loneliness. It is the worst of all tortures, and the worst of all sufferings"*. I'm not alone in loneliness, I know.
Loneliness that can become your comfort zone, because you've been just so hardly trying to adapt when you were obliged to live it...just day by day. When you sit at your living room, wishing someone -you love- come in with a cup of tea and share a movie with you..or when all you look forward to is a morning telephone call saying good morning and asking how do you do, when you go out with all your couples friends and go home sleep alone in our cold bed and cry instead of sleep, when you keep worrying about your looks, your wardrobe, your new -not apparent- issue on your face, your half kilo loss or gain in your body, just because you're focusing your energy on yourself only, when you convince yourself that you need no one and that you're better off alone, it's when your surrounded by so many who love you, yet feeling into your seperate shell. That's the same shell that became so hard for anyone to break down and enter. * Phrase between inverted commas is from "11 minutes" by Paulo Coelho
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